More "Safer at Home"

- April 17, 2020

The Governor has just extended the "Safer at Home" initiative until May 26th. So basically we are quarantined until then. The cases have basically flat lined in Wisconsin, but...

So here, we go. We have good days and bad days. Most days are good. The kids are doing a very good job with all their academics. I seem to be keeping up with my work and Adam is getting his work done (still at work mostly) as well.

Mentally...that's another story. Charlie is having a really hard time with all this. Obviously, he hasn't been anywhere other than the house and occasional car rides to nowhere and hiking for the last 4 weeks. He is heartbroken, sad, and a whole bunch of other emotions. He cries. A lot. My heart breaks for him too.

Carrie is doing great. She seems to get adapt real quickly to change. She is a happy-go-lucky kid without a worry in her life.

Colin is doing fine as well. He is SUPER smart...so when I am teaching him, he gets everything I teach the 1st time which is super helpful right now.

Adam seems unaffected by any of this.

I am ok. Not great certainly, but surviving. I feel like my world was literally turned upside down in a day. Actually, it was. I was no longer allowed to go back into my school, or see my students, or do basically anything. And then I had to adapt to online instruction, something I have never done before, nor has anyone I know. Then I had to get my kids all settled into their virtual environments. And make sure the house was cleaned, laundry done, 3 meals a day for everyone...I am exhausted. More so mentally than physically at this point. I am also sad, so very very sad. I think everyone is. I am sad for this virus and the families it is affecting and the healthcare workers. I am sad for all the students that can no longer be in normal classrooms. I am sad for not being able to sit and talk to people that we love face to face. I am sad for the huge economic loss that this entire country is going to feel and how we may take years to recover from. It is just all awful. And scary. I know Charlie can see and feel that in me, he is a "feeler" for sure.

I have a mantra for myself..when I think of all those people making the world go around right now. When I pray for the researchers each night attempting to come up with a cure or vaccine or something. When I want to throw all the devices out the window. When I want to tell the kids "screw your work..let's just watch movies all day..."--MY KID MIGHT BE THE NEXT PERSON TO CREATE A VACCINE FOR THE NEXT PANDEMIC. I have got to keep them learning. I have got to keep them creating, because what we need right now is someone who can think outside the box and create something that no one ever has before....a cure for this virus. I am in charge of cultivating that next generation.